Today, November 1, 2015, I am once again going to try to improve my life. Through this whole blogging process, I thought I wanted to vent some of my pent up emotion and that it would make me feel free. One can not be free of the self.
This 53rd year of life started out pretty badly from my perspective ; I had no husband, no money, no job. What I did have was poor health, a daughter and parents that need me, a home in a rural county of north Florida, some really good friends, and the never wavering love of my creator - God. Here I am in the eleventh month of 2015, and the ninth month of my 53rd year and I have made progress, but not enough for my satisfaction.
On March 3, 2016, I will officially be 53. I want, by that time, to have scratched a few things off my bucket list. On the top of the list is overcoming vanity. Even in this "super-sized" body, I have had the crazy idea that a younger, good-looking, well established, guy could think of me as more than a friend. Vanity, vanity, vanity! I can see that my focus needs to be on becoming the bride of Christ. Yes, in that capacity, I will meet and be friends with my fellow Christians, male and female, and God will determine whether I experience a human marriage again before I die or Christ returns, which ever comes first.
Today, I start a six week program outlined by Dr. Joel Fuhrman in his book EAT TO LIVE. Hopefully "strict" will be my middle name and I will see great results. Until later ~ Rita D.
